Think about any attachments that are depleting your emotional reserves. Consider letting them go.

I feel like I've been so lost the last 4 years. I feel like I'm still lost. Only, I know where I'm going this time and I know where I've been. I think too much, I think that will be the death of me. I like the moments where I'm not thinking about him. I wish there was a way to just erase those memories. It's those memories, or wanting to call, that slow down my day and make me wonder what it is that I'm doing.