When you can think of yesterday without regret and tomorrow without fear, you are near contentment.

Life has been busy lately. I often feel like I do not have enough time in my day's to accomplish all that I would like to. It gets frustrating, but I try not to let it get the best of me. If I relax, things will get done. Maybe not as fast as I would like, but they will get done.

I think the majority of it, right now, is because of the holidays. I'm trying so hard to prep for Christmas and get a lot of other things done. Stressful. Very stressful.


I haven't been riding as much. That's a whole other story though. One that is also frustrating. Although, I do adore Sawyer and I am so lucky to have him.

Now, for the good stuff. I'm sure that is what all my lurkers are waiting for.

Life, while being frustrating, has also become quite confusing. Don't get me wrong, I love and enjoy everyday. I feel like I am in a wonderful position and I look forward to next year. I will be starting school again and hopefully I will find a promising job. I haven't the slightest clue what I want to accomplish with school (aside from the obvious) but I know I just want to be there.

I'm so stuck. Stuck on which direction I want to go in. I see wonderful things happening if I stay, right now. I'm just unsure of what I want. Part of me is not ready to settle down, or be done with my adventures. I am 25 and I have so much more I want to do. I want to travel and meet new people. Then again, part of me is afraid to take a path that holds uncertainty. With certainty comes stability and I've done nothing but preach about stability.

So, I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. I hate not having answers. It is my curse, I like to know everything. Which simply isn't going to happen, unless I really figure out what I need to do.

I will continue this later, my back hurts.